Today's a really unusual Sunday. I was very excited to go to church this morning, that kind of exciment was really imdescribable. Oh well, before going to church, I was reading the last part of 'Miss You Forever' (the 3rd serie of Lost You Forever). They story line is really good, honestly. I can't help falling in live with it. Too much. Dramatic. Well-written. Touching. Lovely. Forever. If you wanna read this book, I can lend them to you. Oh my... I can't control myself.
Okay, that's to much, I know. So, my outfit of today is a uniqlo blue T-shirt with a new jean skirt. They're all blue and new. I'm such a big fan of blue... Hmm, continue my story. So, I went to the Sunday school. Not many people went there, maybe most of them went for holiday. When we finished reading the scripture, we were supposed to sing Gloria Patri and someone was supposed to be playing the piano. I felt normal, just as usual. It's just a sudden when my friend asked me to play they song. I wasn't really scared or nervous. Just felt nothing. I went up and played it without the piano sheet. Not to deny, my tempo was so wrong and people just simply sang it. I'm so sorry, I haven't played it until perfect. I'll practise. Then, for Doxology, I stopped in the middle. Haha, just when I felt I pressed the wrong key. It was a good start for me though:)
Then, we had lesson. It was about sufferings which I didn't share much. However, I told my friend that I was really afraid of loneliness. Was I? Am I? I'm not sure. Uh, that's not really important. So after that I had my 1st choir practice. I felt a little nervous b'cause I was very dscared of being looked down by anyone. Well, gradually, I felt better even though the song was pretty hard to be sung. Am I a soprano? I'm not sure, but I'm quite sure that I can sing high pitch then low pitch. My lowest pitch could be A, I think so. It was great!
I think I'm just a person who's hard to mix with people. Maybe I'm too serious, or I might have behaved too dull. I don't know. I'm not a nerd, I'm forced to be one. I can't live my life the way I want it to be. I know that, my life is not my life, I need to work for God. I can't be such a lazy person. I can't live an enjoying life.
I'm trying very hard, maybe I'm not. I need to go out of the box. Being too square or rigid can't bring me anywhere, can it? I know, I can go out of the box by being around the box. Be right and be clear, I have to know what I'm doing at every moment. I have too many things to do, too many interests. Photography, playing the piano, singing, I need to fight against time. I'm a photographer, a Chirstian, a student, a person who's chosen to decorate:(, a president of the Nature Club, a pianist, a runner...
I'm not tired, am I? Or maybe I'm too tired to know I'm tired. Nonsense. Spm is really coming soon. I still left 4 months. I need to be prepared. I have to work. Essays, questions, knowledge, I wanna stuff all of you inside my brain, my cells. God is the mountain. I'm doing all things for Him. Aim.
Bye,
Emily
08/06/2014
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