Little secret

Hey, readers! I wonder how many people read my blog, maybe none of you is my friend.

Oh well, that's not a big deal. Maybe only me, myself care about this blog which is so picture-less and uninteresting. It's okay, I don't need people, do I?

I wanna talk about getting a phone. Seriously, this issue has been dragging me since I don't now when. I want a phone, not really want, but I need it. If you're not me, you don't actually know the feeling of being in such a strict family. My mum is honestly a good mother, the way she used to teaching me was so good, even better than the school teacher, you know. She was too energetic, but my twin sister and I still didn't get really good grades while we were in primary school. However, I managed to get straight As in the public exam due to my ego. She's still strict but not really, after she found out that I'm actually even stricter than her while doing my work. That's true, I have been placing myself in a stressful situation where I have to be disciplined enough to cope with my demands.

Phone, I need one. Currently, I hate Facebook so much. Without it, I couldn't live. I can, but my life is so so hard. I don't have a phone. I have to check Facebook about everyday, in case there's something really important. Desperately, I need a phone. So, I wrote an email to my dad, proposing that I want an iPhone 5c, telling him the reasons of wanting a phone and how I promised I'll be a good person after all. That's a brilliant idea, isn't it? I don't dare to tell my mum about my idea of wanting something more than RM1k which would probably make me a wilder child. Hmm, I'm a really good student, in my friends' minds. I suppose no one thinks that I'll do something wild.

The greatest reason of promising I won't do anything bad in the email is that I'm Emily. Yeah, I'm Emily, I won' do this or that. I was using myself, my attitude to guarantee that I will still be a good student, a good daughter and etc. The most astonishing ending of my email is that 'I know what I'm doing'. This is the best saying of the year. In this sentence, the confidence and promise are shown. I'll be responsible for what I've done.

I like gadgets no because of having all these make me a better person. Nope. The reason is that, from all the new technologies, my brain will like attracting all the mathematics and physics automatically. I don't know why, I think I should study to be an E&E engineer. That might be my right track.

Money, I don't even have a penny. My dad loves me so much that he could even give me a star from the sky. I thank God for him. While comparing myself with my friends, I can say, I'm so much blessed. First, is to know God, second is to have a dad like my dad. He's not stingy, he gives his time, his money, himself to his children.

So, I haven't told my mum about my idea. One day, she'll know about it. I don't wanna share. Sharing in this way is too much, no privacy. I don't like it. I want to have my own thing. Sometimes, I just feel lonely that I don't even know I'm so alone. It's hard to mix with others, don't you think so?


Emily
13/06/2014