Day

Hello, people. How's life?

I had history paper3 today, it was okay. I wrote a lot and I prayed that I could get full marks. Oh well, time passes really fast but I still can't wait for exam to end. Seriously, I need to be hardworking for another 2 weeks.

I just signed up for a Twitter account, I think I mentioned it in my previous post. Well, it's not good as it triggers my mind and makes me think whether people accept me or not. But, that doesn't mean it's completely bad. At least I learned something, that's to share things with people and accept them. In fact, I offer my friend who wants to learn to play the piano so badly to come to my house next year so that she can practise if my family is gonna move away.

As the clock ticks and tocks, my time spending with my twin is getting less. We're gonna be apart. I can't believe what's gonna happen after that. Who will I be? I have no idea. May the Lord help me.

I have an urge of wanting to melt people's heart, just like how God melts and fires my heart. I'm warm right now. I wanna pray for everyone that I know and who need help. Things will be okay after praying, that's what I've encountered most of the time.

It's time to devote. I love my church friends and teachers. I shouldn't have called them friends but brothers and sisters.

Oh before I go, I still have something to share. My draft of resolutions and target for year 2015:)
1) Sing alto
2) Become a Sunday school teacher
3) Join Youth fellowship (not current one but for older youth)
4) Go photo shoots and produce more art work
5) Get 90 ATAR in Austmat
6) Friend with people and accept them
7) Be a good photographer in college
8) Love people around me
9) Devote everyday
10) Go jogging regularly

Wow, that sounds a lot right? I'm looking forward.

All the best
With love,
Emily
13/11/2014

Time

Hello, today is a really extremely boring day.

I re-activated my Twitter account and it was okay. Well, you know it's all about follow and twitter and favourite and retweet and stuff. Nothing much, but it"s cool that I can write anything that I like in short sentences.

A lot of things actually happen to me. I'm wondering what kind of person I'm at the moment. Easily get bored? I have no idea. I'm not a type of person who thinks a lot like why he/she acts this way or taut way. To be honest, I just like to observe people because it feels like watching a movie or drama. That's pretty cool.

Well, friends... I have no idea what are friends. I have no bestie who can actually talk to me. I spend most of my time with my twin sister and that's good enough for me to live my life. Thinking about her gonna leave here doesn't really upsets me but I'm gonna live alone. Seriously, it will not be any good thing. I can't cook and I can't do lots of stuff. I find my mum the best because I don't have to do things when she's around. Okay that's not really terrible. I like silence though.

This year hasn't ended yet and I already have had a lot of resolutions and targets for next year. Like, getting a driving license, becoming a Sunday school teacher, singing as an Alto in a choir, photoshooting with friends, getting 90 and above for ATAR. Well quite a lot but I haven't even finished the public exams. This actually makes me suffocate so much. I don't think I've done well so far but not very bad.

This long break is gotta be memorable. Uh... Oh yeah, I'm gonna get a laptop! I feel so excited! I wanna get something good for photo editing. And, my eldest sis is coming back.

I don't know why I have a sort of feeling that people don't like me much. I don't know, maybe I'm too sensitive. I am hate this feeling but I know I shouldn't care much about it. There's nothing about it.

It's time to go back to book. Bye

Emily
11/11/2014

Mum

Hello, today's my mum's birthday and.I decide to write a little bit about her.

She's really a good mother, truly and honestly. I know you might say everyone comments this about their mum but you know, I once disliked her before.

I thought she was so uncaring, rigid and materialistic. I treated her hot and cold, as a result. I didn't appreciate her much when she a year or maybe months ago until things made me see how important she is in my life.

Yeah, she's definitely rigid in her way. For example, she doesn't like me going out even going to church is somehow not a good thing to her. She wasn't willing to drive me to school and I was kinda angry and sad with that, but she never purposely left me in school!

Well, I don't know what specific things that made me change my view on her. There are a lot like she keeps forcing herself to do things that she doesn't really like such as cooking and driving. She never likes to cook but she cooks everyday. And you know, even so, her cooking is still one of a kind and good! I hate pepper, I hate no taste... If you're Elisa, you definitely know what I mean.

Okay, that's all I wanna say.
I PRAY THAT MY MOM WILL ONE DAY SING IN A CHOIR WITH ME TO PRAISE THE LORD! (since she loves to.sing and me too)

I have her photo but can't post it her due to my phone, uh...

Bye.
Emily
08/11/2014

Found

Hello, people. Today is the 4th day of spm, I got a question wrong for moral study and felt pretty bad.

I never know how would it be like to have days that I have to feed myself and I have to be responsible to do something real. I mean, to do something that would affect one's life. I have no idea.

Becoming a doctor hasn't been my great ambition. I only started this 'dream' when I was form 3. I can't remember how and why I had this thought. Maybe I wanted to be someone who had a 'Dr' in front of the name or anything else. Now, I strongly feel that life is really meaningless from the beginning to the end. Absolutely nothing.

However, I still believe that I'm on the earth today is not by luck or anything. Clearly, I only think that the biggest point of living is to serve the Lord and His people. That's how I got my idea on why I'm here. It sounds kind of innocence and a little stupid to somebody. Well, I really can't think of any reasons more.

I searched the website about studying Austmat in MCKL, I'm quite interested in this programme. I don't know whether I can cope with the study or not, but I think I'll do my best. I feel so lost sometimes. I know that God has His own plan and I shouldn't be worrying about anything like this. I'm a fool.

There are whole bunch of people who are so so so much better than me. Who am I to do such a big thing? Healing? HAHA. I shouldn't be mocking at myself, I'm a creation of God. Uh... Too small to do anything.

Wow, typing this whole lot of things make me think of something. I'm such a WEAK person because God wants to use me to show testimonies. Hmm, I should be humble and learn more things.

Okay, time to sleep.
Tomorrow, I'll be studying history. May the Lord help everyone in doing anything.

Bye
Emily
06/11/2014

Pray

Due to the fact that I'm having English test tomorrow, I'm gonna spam this particular post with just nothing but something. Well, if you get what I mean.

The exam today was quite okay. I don't think I did really well today. Essays were really uncool for me, I mean, I still think I could have done it better. After all, everything is under God's plan, I should surrender all these to Him.

What I find amazing about the exam is that no one gets to see his paper after he has handed in the answer sheet. It's super cool in the way that I believe that even I did it badly, God would still change my marks. That sounds like dreaming but a lot of times, amazing things happen just because they happen.

Remaining cool for the whole day is great. I feel like writing right now but I don't. I don't know what I'm talking about. I pray for the best instead of hoping on wishing. That's what I do. I know that my results can never determine where I should go but it is God who determines that.

Oh well, studying... Bye

Emily
3/11/2014