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Hello!

Today's been good! All the days have been quite productive, history is not as bad as I think, after all. The most important thing is I'm mentally and physically prepared for SPM.

I really enjoy living in this country. Well, I mean, this country has its own good in its way. However, the unfair things still happen. I feel a little angry about it but, God's the one who placed me here.

As I'm still considering my future, a lot of people give me all sorts of suggestions. I wonder how can I survive in the world. Can I go for things that I'm passionate? Or I should just take life easy and choose something... I'm curious about my life, I question a lot. Why am I here and how am I gonna be? Struggling through all the questions and I finally find out that it's because God loves me.

I have a sudden thought that I should go to study commerce instead of medicine. I have no idea if I can do anything well. 'You'll know it when you go'. This is hard, what if it's really unbearable? Can I stand?

I'm just praying that God'll do what he plans on me! I really need the answer. I can do anything, seriously, well, except those literature stuff, you know, arts. Yeah, that's it. I won't think of it anymore. Life is hard, earning money is hard, everything is hard but there's God, who can make the impossibilities possible.

I gotta go back to books. It's already been 3 month long that I never logged on to Instagram though I sometimes googled my name and checked, shhh... Okay bye!

Love
Emily
28/10/2014