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Hello, people. Today is the 4th day of spm, I got a question wrong for moral study and felt pretty bad.

I never know how would it be like to have days that I have to feed myself and I have to be responsible to do something real. I mean, to do something that would affect one's life. I have no idea.

Becoming a doctor hasn't been my great ambition. I only started this 'dream' when I was form 3. I can't remember how and why I had this thought. Maybe I wanted to be someone who had a 'Dr' in front of the name or anything else. Now, I strongly feel that life is really meaningless from the beginning to the end. Absolutely nothing.

However, I still believe that I'm on the earth today is not by luck or anything. Clearly, I only think that the biggest point of living is to serve the Lord and His people. That's how I got my idea on why I'm here. It sounds kind of innocence and a little stupid to somebody. Well, I really can't think of any reasons more.

I searched the website about studying Austmat in MCKL, I'm quite interested in this programme. I don't know whether I can cope with the study or not, but I think I'll do my best. I feel so lost sometimes. I know that God has His own plan and I shouldn't be worrying about anything like this. I'm a fool.

There are whole bunch of people who are so so so much better than me. Who am I to do such a big thing? Healing? HAHA. I shouldn't be mocking at myself, I'm a creation of God. Uh... Too small to do anything.

Wow, typing this whole lot of things make me think of something. I'm such a WEAK person because God wants to use me to show testimonies. Hmm, I should be humble and learn more things.

Okay, time to sleep.
Tomorrow, I'll be studying history. May the Lord help everyone in doing anything.

Bye
Emily
06/11/2014